I won't... As long as my friends are here... [And as long as she could remain there for them.] ...I'll hold onto these happy memories. That way, even when... [All the sad ones plagued her. Even when she didn't feel she had the right to exist.]

...I'll still have so much to remind me that I'm better off existing. [For the people that mattered to her in the Order. People like him and her best friends... and many others there.]